脆弱

为什么 世界突然变得那么灰

今天的我 很丑 

因为我不爱笑了

不笑的人是不是很不美？

我不知道为什么 整晚都睡不好 精神很差

所以起身过后我都闷闷的

起来了 如常上网了一下下

妈妈就叫我帮忙，说不要整天抱住电脑 ==

我去折被，扫了地 又去动下电脑了

在家。。。 她会叫我照顾两个小的。

我知道 小孩子顽皮是正常

但是 今天的我 对着他们 却很不耐烦

失去耐性去哄他们

甚至给他们气到我也想哭 

最后我决定 出去透透气

一个人走去理发店剪头发了

出去了。。。 心情真的好些

呼吸新鲜的空气

但是还是一样闷闷的。。。

因为没人陪我聊天 

在那里等了一个小时 == 闷~

回到家 过不久他就打来了

很开心啊~

心志勃勃接他的电话

但是 他打来的声音依然那么累

2 个小时 他说他没有睡到 睡不着 现在才想睡

我当然扁嘴咯~ 但是无效 ==

我好想和他聊多点 想他陪我多么一点 因为今天都没有的见他了。。。

昨天又算不算约会呢？？

但是他的声音真的告诉我 他又要去睡了

就代表说 我又要等了 没关系。。。

有时 我选择保持沉默

因为我会不敢告诉他我的想法

说了过后 会 吵架 弄得大家又不开心 

 我很讨厌这种场面 >< 

还是应该相信他 对他有信心的

也对我自己要有信心啊？？

如果 我野蛮 我小气

只是想你多在乎我 因为同时我太在乎你了

我心情不好 不开心 要怎么假装很开心呢

今天， 我的心情已经闷闷了 

即使没人哄我 我都一直提醒自己 很努力得叫自己 开心 但是我办不到

我喝冰 我吃甜的食物 但这些都起不了作用

我想我还不能完全拥有你的心

回忆过去 是否真的忘不了

你会想起她的好 而遗忘了我吗？

对 我的心情就是很不安

烦躁 不好的预感。。。

可能 是我过分了 但是我又要求得太多吗

我会愿意陪你去做你喜欢做的东西

也让你去做你喜欢的东西 我想你开心

 

但是有时我也想你陪我 不是和朋友出去顺便带我出去的那种陪

就偶尔 我会喜欢 两个人相处 明白吗

我承认我贪心 但是你可以不跟我计较 宠我多点吗？？

我只想被你宠坏 知道吗？再多三分之一 =）

今天的我很需要你的陪伴！ 只想你给我个拥抱 但是。。。

不说了。。。我真的希望我能更坚强 不要太依赖~。

p/s: This chinise article just wrote for express my feeling... 

I really felt better... =)

I miss you... I miss your everything... I miss hugging you...

I LOVE WALTER SO MUCH... *peace*

I lost sleep yest...

5am fell aslp but 9am woke up dy ><

I trying my best to relax but its so hard i could fall aslp...

Yesterday suppose i going sunway lagoon with my classmates one

But then my mum ask me take care my nephews at home

She said she got many things to do, Not around home lol

Okays, Sure im a guai guai lui

Listen to her so i didnt join my frens dy

But at last she was staying at home whole noon with my aunt

Arh... Gek sei me~

Made my day become bored~Hmmp~and i ffk them~

I think i didnt hanging out with them since start sem until now

I really wish to go with them this time... >.<

Haih... Nvm, sure got chance again right?

hehe~how r u guy??i hope u guys had lots fun yest~~

Im waiting u guy upload pic let me see ah~hehe

Sry ya~promise join u all next time kay?

Ah khoo said next trip will be going port dickson

wahaha... Water again

Ngek ngek~ Im waiting for it =]

♥Happy Birthday to Wei wei ♥

15/3/09

We was celebrated wei wei bday at ah b hse at evening

Pizza Hut as our dinner =)

Nice cake ya!

She was freaking happy when saw a hello kitty bday cake~

hahaha~Amazing us

  

kuen, bday gal n me

After that, bie came n pick us up headed over to Poppy..Mwahz...

There was my 1st time went to Poppy

Lol, there was very strict while getting in

Luckily bie's fren kelvin could bring us go in

Hm...

Surrounding okay, Music okay okay loh

People at there nice ya!

Everyone were quite enjoy on that night too~hehe

Opps, i Pk while walking to toilet ==

Alamak~fish neh~Lucky got ppl hold up me..hm

When im awake i just realised that my leg get injuried 

Pain lah wei... 

My legs n hands are stagnate of blood ><

Here are pics-cha took in club

best fren~

Sui po gang~chin,kuen,xian n bB

huh~tat siao za po get drunk dy~

♥We are loving each others♥

P/s: wei wei: 

Haha~ big gal lo~must know protect urself well kay

stay happy happy n smile always* ;)

♥Happy Birthday my Sui po Kuen♥

Sorry i have been update my blog lated

Talk about 10/3/09- tues

Hohoho

We were celebrating our Sui Po KueN bday at ts gasoline.

That's a promise i believed

No matter how we changed, our friendship stil de same yea~

U know we love u much right~Tehe =)

Sweet kiss for bday gal*

[ chicken ngor n duck ] Here we are! Same like last year~hehe

 

wei kit n me

 

  Baby with me            

ming hui n me 

 look gay??haha~yeng lah~

Sui po gang huh~!

 Im acting throw cake to b face~keke
 

 bb n my bie =)   

 
  They are heng dai

Although not very special n not much surprised we gv

But anyways hope u got a memorable birthday ya my dear~!!Muacks

Im bored
Lonely... Im Mrs Lonely... =(

Long diary =)

Feel like long time didnt update my blog...

Have to start blogging from last tues~Hehe~

3/3/09

That day was my lovely mum birthday!

wish my mum pretty n healthy 4ever ya!!

I love her~~!Tehe

We went to restoran ate dinner n headed back home celebrate again

After cut cake

Headed over pavilion watched Kung Fu Chefs-11.15pm

my family included me total 7person watching that movie~

But i think only 10person inside de cinema

Haha! so U can imagine how good de movie is~lolx

Finished movie then home sweet home

Too bad... i didnt take single photo with mum on that day><

Anyways... Happy birthday to my mum once again~!

my dad n 3rd bro n me

4/3/09

Sick dy... didnt go for class =(

5/3/09

Fever bring down =)

As usual... could attended my class

6/3/09

Since my class on mon-thur

Friday sure will be my free day in this sem

hehe~so decided... Hang out with sui po b n wei wei...

We hanged awhile at sg wang n took lunch at Yao 1 Qun

Then headed over to pavilion

We bought a present for kuen

Hope she will like it ya... Tehehe

I also bought a surprise gift to my boy

Guess what's it?? haha...

Its a secret...ishh... =)

&

bought a annasui foundation 4 my mum belated's present

I am a good daughter mah... haha~

Oppss... When back to home...

I check my wallet...

realised that when i go out sure i wil keep on buying things...

Alamak... Broke dy lah... ><

7/3/09

Early 7.30am went to listen car teori class at sg buloh with ah b

1 word to describe de class

Bored.

Came back at 2pm

After that back home took a nap then headed to b's hse get prepare

My sui po kuen going celebrate her bday party early~Haha...

Party tonight~!No drunk no home 4 bday gal~ U cannot run dy~ngek ngek~ =)

3 sui po~love them much~kekex

hey... 18sx xD

We're busy taking pic-cha before going out...kekex~self-loved

Reached quattro at 11am

Quite crowd n packed there...hm

But i do really enjoy with de music

Music n song is nice~

Haha... Move move shake shake and??

Drunk...

I really get drunk this time...

According to my memory

I just rmb i feel like wink wink all de wayv & could stand properly dy

everything is moving in front of me @@

And yet... I insisted on dancing

Solo? nvm what... hehe...

Bie was taking care me whole night

Feel sorry bec i made him didnt drink much& dance much

He bring me to outside awhile and i just lying on him embrace

Talking nonsense without control...lol

But finally i felt awake after rested awhile

Then we went in again...

When i go in i saw kuen n sim mei they both oso get drunk...

Lol... kuen want to kissing friends all de way

Haha... Happy its okay!

Ended up party we headed to maideen 4 supper... Maybe breakfast??lol

Bie told me i talked alot when i get drunk

Im very innoying... made him pek chek... swt...
Well... Im okay...

6.30am only reached bie's home =.='

the next day, we only slpt few hours then woke up took shower

taken our lunch then fal aslp again

Hahaha...

My LUNCH

Fried chicken n hot dog

Baby cooked geh =)

This too...

nice?? ofcause!!hehe

Slp whole day at his hse...
Really damn tired lol...

Night, went out 'Chang toy kiok' with bie

L.kui came n met up us later...

After ate, went to roy hse picked up him then they send me home

They went to fireball

In de car, they chatting about yesterday during club

lol... I really fish enough nia

Roy said im cute when i drunk dy...

Bla bla bla...

Aiyoyo...

Who asked me is still new in drink alcoholic liquor

easy get drunk is normal... so dont laugh n blame on me okay... =*l

Got home, i cleaned up once again...

After that i have to take care my nephew-julian bec his parents not yet come back

Talked to him n accompany him go to bed...

Im really so pig le... hoho...

9/3/09

Today is public holiday~

Where r you all going??

Sure full of program right?

Since bie got alot of hwk n assignment to do

We could not hang out

I should understand him n stand at his situation always

But im just disappointed n no mood bec staying at home

Arhh...

Hm... Forgive me okay? Mwahz...

Just now, My friend asked me go for movie later...?hm

Actually i should go out since im no mood to stay at home right...

But i reject dy...

Mis you alot... I just wan c you but not other guy >.<

So at last... I choosen staying at home. Ended.

College

Situation during lecture

He cute right??

He called Lucky~

Was a very active n cute doggy!!

Just 2 months =)

Well, i was started my 3rd sem from today!

Fuu~ have been rested 1 month++

Its suppose a very enough time 4 me to relax myself n enjoy my day

But then since i fell into sick 4 almost 3 weeks

Its not actually enjoyment anymore >.<

I seem like doing nothing much in this holiday...haha!!

Well... time passed so fast...

Should appreciate time n people around us all the time! =)

Today wake up 9 in the morning...

Get ready and then my mum fectched me to Sri Rampai to collect my New Ic

But i have waited at there almost an hour suddenly i heard somebody said we have to collect it next day...system down!

So, I couldnt collect my ic and need to come again next day

Mum talked so much to me again... lol...

And i have been late 4 class just started de 1st day lecture...

What a unlucky day 4 me..=.=

Today not really absorbed lesson that lecture n tutor taught us

But i trying to absorb into my brain as much as i can

Since i still in holiday mood, still cant used to it...

So there will be 80% things gone after i got home...

Haha...

1st thing i done when i got home was straight away lying down n took a nap

=) Dont know why... Just few hours, But i felt that i have been studying 4 whole day long...paiseh

Today i have learn about subject fundamental of marketing

7 weeks, have to catch up 11 chapters for this subject

and presentation n assignment will come along

Quite tough n diffcult although its a short sem...

So people, we cant be lazy~must work hard to catch up n do revison our own kay!

Lolz...

Actually i was talking to myself...haha!

Cannot lazy... Gambateh huh! =)

Hmm...

Btw, i need to thanks ming hui at here

bec she gonna fetch me to college in this 7 weeks

She kindly n helped me alots...

Thanks her so much! Tehehe...

Oh yeah,

Last saturday bie brought me to hulu langat at night

and we taken steak as our supper

Finally i could been there with my lover

This was a thing i wishes so long n now its happend!

Keke...

It will be a memorable day 4 us...

Hehe...

Of cause, I mis him right now~